Friday, May 04, 2007

Struggling to Breath

Some days I feel like we're doing good. Things are going well.

But most days lately are spent feeling as though I can barely keep this family above water. It's like I'm constantly doggy paddling and I'm wearing out quicker than I can find relief.

Our house is still on the market. We've had a few calls, but the reality is I'm scared. I have no CLUE how to sell a house, but we can't afford a realtor. So I have to sell it. People call and kind of laugh when I mention the price but we have to break even.

Things are church aren't going as well as they once were. We've just never done this before and it's hard. That's all there is to it. It's hard when we have a house and live 45 minutes away from people we're trying to minister to. When I can't seem to get any instrumentalists/singers. When I get some from our main campus only to find they've been rescheduled to sing/play there instead of with me. Frustrating I tell ya.

And being pregnant on top of all of this?? Argh. Hormones, frustrations, and stress do not mix well. I need a free realtor, a free housekeeper, free musicians, and a nap. Until then I head to rehearsal tonight, church tomorrow and Sunday, and planning new things for church all next week. We totally need to change our strategy.


Anonymous said...

I can't buy your house--but I want to come over and help you clean it. I can come a day when you aren't going to be there or I can just come over and help. I mean it. It's not like I have anywhere else to be now. I was just thinking today that I have been missing you. Please let me help. I'll even make you all dinner.

MichelleD said...

We have no musicians at our church. I've never been to a church where there was not one person who could play piano or guitar, but that is where I am now. For music, we use the iWorship DVDs (and some purpose driven life ones, too), which are fine, but far from a good solution. I pray that you find some musicians soon, and that you feel God's comfort and strength in this stressful time!
I love you!
Twinkling for Jesus,